taratemima | Mashuko's dillema (Reply)

Got in touch with Mashuko last night. Almost wish I didn't.

Relations between him and his dad are steadily getting worse, with police visits and all. His brother won't allow him to move in, he is unemployed, working under the table, and his record deal is still in limbo.

I can only give him advice on jobs and getting out of the house as often as possible, but he seems to really needle me about not being able to live with me and my mom. Dude, I live in public housing. They notice stuff like a guy moving in. I wonder if I should let him stay for a day or have him move into a motel. Christ, why do I care? He is 39 years old, I am still in college and living at home, why am I giving him advice? Am I somehow less emotionally fucked and less dependent than he is? Maybe my mom is not as manipulative and hystericial as his dad. Fuck, I cannot give him much other than advice he never takes. I TOLD him about a job opening, several as I could remember. Does he pursue them? No. I cannot say 'not my problem' because I don't want to take and not give something for people.