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Aug. 25th, 2003 07:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaI sometimes fall asleep
hearing music
from no earthly radio.
I feel awake enough, but my eyes burn slightly and I get headaches behind the eyeballs. I don't get it.
I promised myself I would do five hours overtime, but somehow I am dreading staying until 6:30 today and tomorrow. Hell, I am dreading staying until 5:30. What's up with my motivation? My work ethic?
I guess I want to prove to myself I am not becoming lazy and set in my ways, that I can improve myself in some small way. Same with the plans to practice yoga and go back to voice lessons.
On another note: Finished Drinking Sapphire Wine and Witch Baby. Working on Cherokee Bat and the Goat Guys, The Big Sleep, OoTP and some other books somewhere.
"Kidnap the Sandy Claws" is running through my head.
I have this running dialogue:
"I want to go home."
"But you said you were going to stay here, make more money, prove to yourself you're responsible."
"What am I going to do about dinner? I'll have to wait until I get home to have some, since I don't want to spend all my money I have until payday on eating out."
"You will eat when you get home. You'll go home anyway, at 5pm or 8pm. Thing is, they are noisier the earlier in the day. Work overtime so you can invite everyone for DVDs and pizza. So you can take a week's vacation, spend time with friends and not worry about money."
"But I'm so tired, so . . . bored, but if I say that out loud, I'll have no job. Why did I spend the weekend moping around the house? Ow! Headache! Hunger!"
"Three more hours. You can handle it."
"No."
"Yes."
I want to write, but the headache is consuming any dialogue or imagery I might be able to put down. It is like my thoughts are pulled away from projects and back to the headache. Headaches now fading, but I am not completely trusting my head.
hearing music
from no earthly radio.
I feel awake enough, but my eyes burn slightly and I get headaches behind the eyeballs. I don't get it.
I promised myself I would do five hours overtime, but somehow I am dreading staying until 6:30 today and tomorrow. Hell, I am dreading staying until 5:30. What's up with my motivation? My work ethic?
I guess I want to prove to myself I am not becoming lazy and set in my ways, that I can improve myself in some small way. Same with the plans to practice yoga and go back to voice lessons.
On another note: Finished Drinking Sapphire Wine and Witch Baby. Working on Cherokee Bat and the Goat Guys, The Big Sleep, OoTP and some other books somewhere.
"Kidnap the Sandy Claws" is running through my head.
I have this running dialogue:
"I want to go home."
"But you said you were going to stay here, make more money, prove to yourself you're responsible."
"What am I going to do about dinner? I'll have to wait until I get home to have some, since I don't want to spend all my money I have until payday on eating out."
"You will eat when you get home. You'll go home anyway, at 5pm or 8pm. Thing is, they are noisier the earlier in the day. Work overtime so you can invite everyone for DVDs and pizza. So you can take a week's vacation, spend time with friends and not worry about money."
"But I'm so tired, so . . . bored, but if I say that out loud, I'll have no job. Why did I spend the weekend moping around the house? Ow! Headache! Hunger!"
"Three more hours. You can handle it."
"No."
"Yes."
I want to write, but the headache is consuming any dialogue or imagery I might be able to put down. It is like my thoughts are pulled away from projects and back to the headache. Headaches now fading, but I am not completely trusting my head.
