taratemima | (no subject) (Reply)

I spent a good chunk of my day searching for job aptitude tests. Not just job personality, but job skills (not necessarily a test for one particularly kind), and the fact they all cost money is just frustrating. I just feel so shaky about my skills and personality, I don't know what to tell people.

Or maybe I should stop being late for interviews. That would do it.

Had a long talk with Angus. He thinks that I might be sabotaging myself, because I am afraid of change, despite the fact not having the job sucks when you have overdue bills. In a way, I fear I will fail at my first real job, fear that I will be far away from help if I fail, and fear leaving all I know forever. I mean, permanently. I fear that I will have to be a fraud, have to hide a lot of my personality, that being shy, emotional and odd doesn't cut in the business world. I'll have to hide away from co-workers, afraid they just won't understand me, and even try and sabotage me.

Okay, more fluffy tests.