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Jun. 25th, 2002 04:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaHow my family dealt with the news that apparently we owe back rent thanks to my temp job and not knowing that I had to report income a week after I start working instead of two months after:
Panic. Cry. Yell at no-one in particular. Try to calm the rest of us down. Fret about getting evicted (yes, they can do that, but will they if there is no way to pay the back rent?). Fret about losing section 8.
Never mind I was told not to worry about all Mom was talking about after talking to the person in charge and explaining what I didn't know. I don't think she understands that it's important to me to pay off student loans when I have the money because she didn't, and that screwed up any plans she had to go back to school. I can't be sure that I will get through this, even though it is better for my self-composure. I screwed up and I am always afraid of making that one irrevocible mistake that will doom me. I am worried enough about making a good impression for the second interview with Quincy College that I don't need to think about what if I don't get it. Or worse, what if I get it and it is not enough?
I'll never get out of here.
Panic. Cry. Yell at no-one in particular. Try to calm the rest of us down. Fret about getting evicted (yes, they can do that, but will they if there is no way to pay the back rent?). Fret about losing section 8.
Never mind I was told not to worry about all Mom was talking about after talking to the person in charge and explaining what I didn't know. I don't think she understands that it's important to me to pay off student loans when I have the money because she didn't, and that screwed up any plans she had to go back to school. I can't be sure that I will get through this, even though it is better for my self-composure. I screwed up and I am always afraid of making that one irrevocible mistake that will doom me. I am worried enough about making a good impression for the second interview with Quincy College that I don't need to think about what if I don't get it. Or worse, what if I get it and it is not enough?
I'll never get out of here.
