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Feb. 1st, 2001 06:21 pmI've hanging here, for contact, any contact, trying to do my homework, missing work again. What is wrong with me? Do I need sleep? Is there something I am running from? Why am I feeling this way? This mania of wanting to talking about anything, this loneliness of missing people.
It's Matt, right? Oh god, not again. I know he is just a friend. Just a friend, and if I keep hanging on the proverbial phone for him or anyone else, people are going to wonder what the fuck. I walk like a zombie to school, ditch work, try to get in touch with people, try to fulfill appointments. What is the matter with me?