taratemima | if this is heaven i'm bailing out

Symbolic Logic course work is a brick wall into which I launch myself into over and over again. And I will have to cut off that joy short so I can go to work, despite missing it for an entire week. Linguistics club had our president talking up the Honors Program, something I cannot get into because of my mediocre GPA. How come I am always afflicted with a tinge of envy when I hear of academic honors? I try hard, but get lazy and/or confused. The last time I was in honor roll was seventh grade. Great. The height of my academic career was when I was miserable as hell and had only homework to occupy my time.

I know that I won't get into grad school with my stunning grades, and I am hoping to make it up by having a full resume and tutition reimbrusement. You know, "See? I may be only a mediocre student with little teaching history, but I have done work in this stuff, dammit!" Still, I'd like to have a diploma beside 'with honors.' Yeah, yeah, grades don't mean much, but it is a sense of a job done well. Hell, I am not even sure I can complete my minor coursework due to wanting to graduate after lost time. That is what is about. Lost time. Lost opportunities.

I did however apply for a tutoring position for first year linguistics classes. Maybe I should consider tutoring for Symbolic Logic. Bleagh.