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Feb. 15th, 2003 04:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaValentine's Day feels odd to me.
I sometimes feel hurt, remember Valentines that I didn't receive, crushes that weren't reciporcated, feelings of shyness and expectation of rejection when meeting someone new, and the general feeling of being too mishapen and naive for a committed relationship (not to mention feeling embarrassed that hearing about an engagement trips up your marriage fears. Not so much what if you don't, but what if you do and it's a big fucking mistake).
I sometimes feel apathetic. A day on a calender, one you can give as much meaning as you want, but really, why cliched and so fraught with tension? Relax. You are okay without a significant other the other 364 days, your partner loves you the other 364 days, so what's the worry? If you're single, rejoice that you have all the chocolate you want. If you are a secondary, wish yours a good time with their primary. Call a long-distance partner and talk about something.
I sometimes feel inspired. Why show you care in the usual way? You can do it with roses and dinner any other day, but this day, take them to the museum. Try out cheeses. Feed ducks. Go contra dancing. Freak out the patrons by talking about lax government food regulations.
I've done two things out of the list. How about you?
I sometimes feel hurt, remember Valentines that I didn't receive, crushes that weren't reciporcated, feelings of shyness and expectation of rejection when meeting someone new, and the general feeling of being too mishapen and naive for a committed relationship (not to mention feeling embarrassed that hearing about an engagement trips up your marriage fears. Not so much what if you don't, but what if you do and it's a big fucking mistake).
I sometimes feel apathetic. A day on a calender, one you can give as much meaning as you want, but really, why cliched and so fraught with tension? Relax. You are okay without a significant other the other 364 days, your partner loves you the other 364 days, so what's the worry? If you're single, rejoice that you have all the chocolate you want. If you are a secondary, wish yours a good time with their primary. Call a long-distance partner and talk about something.
I sometimes feel inspired. Why show you care in the usual way? You can do it with roses and dinner any other day, but this day, take them to the museum. Try out cheeses. Feed ducks. Go contra dancing. Freak out the patrons by talking about lax government food regulations.
I've done two things out of the list. How about you?
