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[taratemima]

Folks, I will never, ever stay at the labs, no matter how engrossing the task/game is, beyond 11pm. I was about to leave thinking, yeah, kinda late, a little after midnight.

More like a little after 1. Buses and trains stop running there. Ack.

I never feel more like an idiot than when I am stranded (up there is misspelling stuff repeatly). But no time like the present--sending out applications by e-mail, doing a web search for a volunteer project. Yes, you can do work while stranded and waiting for the trains to run again. Ain't technology grand? :P

I did have a lot of fun talking to wbova. If you asked me if I would come to know anyone other than folks I knew IRL with a livejournal, I would say 'no.' It is nice to get back into flirting practice, without the baggage of pining for someone unattainable. Or rather someones unattainable. They are happy in their own niches, I am testing the waters, getting back in touch with Matt and the DC folks.

Life is okay. Life will be better when I work at a better job, get something secured after graduation, and all that stuff.

Maybe I will talk to Angus about the whole Arik saga after work tomorrow (assuming I am awake). In the end, Arik understood, agreed with my point of view, felt about as torn as I did, wished we could be friends, and hoped that someday, when I found that someone special, we could go back to being friends. Part of me agreed with that sentiment, and another, malicious part, hoped that someday, when Arik realizes that his relationship was stagent, we cpuld go back to being lovers. That is, however, up to Arik to decide whether his relationship with Theresa can be saved.

I have little hate for Theresa--whatever faults she has is more of timidity and severe introvertness than anything awful. She is also cute, and maybe there are some really great traits that made Arik fall as hard as he did for her. "And I kissed away a thousand tears . . ." At least with me out of the way, she doesn't have to worry.

Meanwhile, I am trying not to fall too hard, too far, too fast. It's nice to have a crush on someone, but I ask if I should meet in person, if this is just lasting a few months, weeks, whatever. Then again, I tend to be anxious about the start of anything.