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Jul. 28th, 2001 05:41 pmI am silently despairing of finishing my paper. It is not the length, but that I am so afraid that I will sound like an idiot on it, like I am not sure what point I want to get across. How do you set up tests for these unanswered questions? One person volunteered if I read psychological work, I would know. No, no, it is not a matter of subjects, I don't know WHAT kinds of tests to give.
I am doing nothing this weekend, breaking up long periods of reading by fusting around on the computer. Dinner is the highlight of my day (which I typed earlier 'dead.' Yeah).
Someone's post about programming made me think of it. I am not a good coder, I do not the organization necessary for it, even though I understand the concepts behind it. If I make up my mind to re-learn C++ and Perl (maybe Prolog, I am told it is used much in natural language processing), it will be a purpose, with lots of hand-holding.
I need some hand-holding, because it is lonely here. I don't always think about it, and it was amerolized due to meeting new people, but I never talk much to them. It is my fault, feeling exposed and judged and not doing enough and slacking off too much. Maybe I don't want to build any kind of resume anymore. I was mildly obsessed about while attending classes, but I don't know if I even want a career in the field I have my degree. Maybe I just want a job that pays okay, where the people are okay, and I have some free time.
But what if I regret not going to grad school? How long is too long to wait? Is there a glut/shortage cycle of jobs in the natural language processing area? Will I pay those student loans? What am I going to do in the end?
I am doing nothing this weekend, breaking up long periods of reading by fusting around on the computer. Dinner is the highlight of my day (which I typed earlier 'dead.' Yeah).
Someone's post about programming made me think of it. I am not a good coder, I do not the organization necessary for it, even though I understand the concepts behind it. If I make up my mind to re-learn C++ and Perl (maybe Prolog, I am told it is used much in natural language processing), it will be a purpose, with lots of hand-holding.
I need some hand-holding, because it is lonely here. I don't always think about it, and it was amerolized due to meeting new people, but I never talk much to them. It is my fault, feeling exposed and judged and not doing enough and slacking off too much. Maybe I don't want to build any kind of resume anymore. I was mildly obsessed about while attending classes, but I don't know if I even want a career in the field I have my degree. Maybe I just want a job that pays okay, where the people are okay, and I have some free time.
But what if I regret not going to grad school? How long is too long to wait? Is there a glut/shortage cycle of jobs in the natural language processing area? Will I pay those student loans? What am I going to do in the end?
