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Frustration
Sep. 1st, 2004 07:22 pmI've been nervous all day, now I am just pissed. Even with the money I gave, still not enough for rent. I don't like posting this in public, but someone who doesn't have a Livejournal and whose reading my journal thought that I hated him, when I was just exhausted from the heat and not wanting to worry everyone with my financial woes. I am afraid I will never get paid back. That's the tip of the iceberg for my fears, but that is what was bothering me, and something I was trying to distract myself last night.
Cake won't make it better, but I want some. I won't get the Forbidden Zone DVD, but I want to see it now. Mom will go back to work after Labor Day. Maybe this will give me incentive to write stuff that I can sell (ie, not fanfic or goofy in jokes). I got money automatically deposited into my savings account, I got an idea of what to pay down, I got a checking account with fewer fees and I know what I am most likely to spend it on. I'm still employed and willing to learn new skills if I knew what job I wanted. Beyond that, I don't know.
Cake won't make it better, but I want some. I won't get the Forbidden Zone DVD, but I want to see it now. Mom will go back to work after Labor Day. Maybe this will give me incentive to write stuff that I can sell (ie, not fanfic or goofy in jokes). I got money automatically deposited into my savings account, I got an idea of what to pay down, I got a checking account with fewer fees and I know what I am most likely to spend it on. I'm still employed and willing to learn new skills if I knew what job I wanted. Beyond that, I don't know.
