we're not ones for busting through walls
Apr. 23rd, 2001 08:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaI care about Arik. I care about him when he is disheaveled and (radio) DJing for hours. I want to feed him, shelter him, take care of him. Thing is, he has a girlfriend. What behavior is okay for two friends, and what behavior goes over the line? What is Theresa okay with? Holding hands? Talking dirty? Kissing? Heavy petting? It seems we did certain behaviors without asking how she felt. But soon, I'll have to say, "Arik, you already have Theresa" when he gets too close for her, but close enough to like it.
I care about Sivan. Years ago, I would have told you I was deeply in love with him. Love? I feel comfortable around him, I am more loyal than I expected myself to be with him. I want to talk to him more, spend more time. If I get everything settled, debts paid off, graduate school complete, resume nicely filled in, I'll get a job near him and live together. Assuming something shitty doesn't happen to him.
Meanwhile, I had to cancel things because I didn't have enough money for the bus--voice lesson, hospital volunteering, class. It fucking sucks. I have a fiver, but it is a matter of waiting for the check to clear. I hate this poverty crap.
I care about Sivan. Years ago, I would have told you I was deeply in love with him. Love? I feel comfortable around him, I am more loyal than I expected myself to be with him. I want to talk to him more, spend more time. If I get everything settled, debts paid off, graduate school complete, resume nicely filled in, I'll get a job near him and live together. Assuming something shitty doesn't happen to him.
Meanwhile, I had to cancel things because I didn't have enough money for the bus--voice lesson, hospital volunteering, class. It fucking sucks. I have a fiver, but it is a matter of waiting for the check to clear. I hate this poverty crap.
