Randomness again

[taratemima]

I want attention for my opinions and fiction, but yet I don't because I am afraid they aren't that good. Dammit, I need to decide which one.

I forgot my PIN (and kept on calling my 'PIN number.' Yes, I realize how dumb I sound, I hope the Citizens Bank people had a good laugh at least). I've got my new card after losing it, and now I forgot the PIN so I cannot activate it. Fortunately, I found the number from the last time I lost my PIN, so it is all okay.

Someone was like, "More jobs were created now than during the Clinton administration!" And I thought, "Compared to how many jobs lost? What sort of jobs?"

Wow, Stephen Zunes was afraid that Israel would be blamed if the war in Iraq goes badly. Who knew that Iran would be the target?

Okay, someone is posting the link to the National Review "OMG Al-Qaeda wuz in bed with Iraq!1!!11!" and I wish I could remember which blog had a takedown on that. Dammit, he admits it's circumstantial, and I don't know if anyone knew what came of the meeting (I mean, look at Rumsfeld; it's not as if Hussein didn't have the habit of screwing over people sometime after meeting with them).

I gotta let go of things I read that piss off. It's ruining my innocent bystander/impartial observer act. Hell, I tried to defuse a political argument at my on-line RPG. The power gamer in the group was also a Bushie, unlike the rest of the group. A Fear Faction joke turns into "Bush is my president. That faggot Kerry didn't fight in a war." I had to bite my
tongue and tell people to drop it so that we wouldn't be shit out of luck when we face a big, adult and angry dragon. Next time I make a character, I'll be a twink.

I move among people who range from socialist to neo-conservative who don't particularly care what I do in my private life. I figure avoiding political discussions unless the people involved can agree to disagree is common sense, not "OMG they are censoring me!1!1!1" (as seen by blowhards of all political stripes, the whole 'Disney iz censoring Michael Moore!11!1!", though a movie is different from a discussion, however, neo-con college students who do that earn my special sort of disdain).

(And next time I see someone in a political argument with an
icon/username that has something to do with guns, I'll mention the black market ICBM in my backyard. A gun collection doesn't make you a freedom fighter; if you
don't use your brain and ask questions, you're just a drone with a gun collection).

Thus, I rarely comment when someone posts about politics; somehow it doesn't stop me from saying something in my journal. I don't know. For someone who tries to stay out of politics, I find myself getting in.

So, I read this rant about stupid people in BDSM. I thought I was the only one who differenated between bottom and submissive. People seem to use that and masochist synomonously. I mean, I like being tied up, ordered around sometimes and hurt a little, but I am not willing to
put myself in the service of another for more than a few hours. I did call myself 'aggressively submissive': Sivan did when I was younger, and it seemed to fit. Maybe it was just a long way of saying 'needy,' I don't know. It's amazing what dumb things I did to keep from being alone. Maybe I still
do.

Okay, when you see the word Zionist, what do you think of:

1) Someone who advocates establishment of a Jewish state, somewhere in the historical area of ancient Judea (with some other proposals that just didn't work out), with folks disagreeing how big and where exactly, or even if
this is the right time.
2) "Damn pushy bastards got guns now."

I ask because I look at political stuff, and I see that word flung like confetti or shrapnel, and I wonder what definition is being used. Plus, Mike Godwin must twitch at how often Hitler or the Nazis are mentioned in Israel/Palestine debates.


I got two hospital bills, an ambulance bill and a cell phone bill. How am I going to work this? I get two bills for different amounts from the same hospital. Huh?



I found this really interesting site about Jean Moulin, which mentions conspiracy theories about how Moulin was betrayed to the Gestapo and who did it. Someday, I might research Algeria or the Iran/Iraq War. Not so weird, I
used to be really interested in colonial America, though god knows if I remember analysis of the War for Independence (what do the UK folks call it again?).

There are features of American culture and government that I think would be real good for the Muslim umma: the Bush administration isn't one of them.

You know what scares me than an end of the world scenario? That it will keep getting worst and it will never end. Humans somehow survive to get a newer and bigger dose of suck, and then more pain, then more pain, that all progress develops is a thicker skin.


There is no LJ community for people who likes to make soundtracks for fictional projects. There are a couple for songs to fit pairings and individual characters in different fandoms, but nothing for soundtracking original works or whole soundtracks for a fanfic, one story or a series. I
know a couple who do it, but I don't know. What I most like is someone to suggest songs for original stories or characters, perferably from bands I've never heard of.


Another thing I worry about: someone will catch me in an error and totally demolish my written work and my personality because of it. I've been afraid of that for years. Of course, if someone goes that far, they aren't much of a critic. I've researched as much as I thought was possible and edited
more than twice because of it. However, I am thinking I need to some kind of stopper for that fear.


Pardon all these randomness. See, most of the work is electronic claims with one or two errors. The only other work is duplicate claims, and I am not trained in those. Usually, they go by fast, but there are so many of them.


All those folks who scream about people sending flames about their fanfic and hope to be real writers: I can't wait until they submit a story or a novel and get rejected.


I am writing more biographies for the RPG, but I am not sure whether to start on the story for Birch Circle or the RPG. Unlike most of the other folks, they are normal and boring and well, normal.

"Romeo's Tune" by Steve Forbert was on the radio. I rarely hear that. It makes me happy.

There are things I need to send.