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The next time someone makes some remark about Kerry and 'flip-flopping,' this is what I am going to say:

"Bush flip-flopped on profiling, steel tariffs, funding for HIV treatment in Africa, Israel/Palestine and expanding governmental agencies. He flip-flopped on funding police and fire departments, too. Oh, and how
about that Patriot Act? So much for government staying out of my business. (Yes, I know he voted for that, and the sunset clause and yeah) And the importance of catching Bin Laden. When Kerry made that remark about Saddam, he was told there would be allies and proof and shit (I assumed earlier the remark was made during the first Gulf War. I read the debate transcript. I was wrong and corrected it :P)

Which do you want: someone who changes his mind because of new information and circumstances, or someone who changes his mind for his own gain and incompetence?"

Then again, I went to bed early due to the persistent feeling of tiredness that even 8 hours could not blast, so I did not see the debates. I caught a blurb in the Metro and the Horrid is already praising Our Fearless and Pious Leader's emulation of the noble lemming, so I am pissy enough.

I have not risen any earlier than I did before, so the extra hour of sleep was a wash. So, I really didn't pack much of a lunch. All we really have in the house is canned stuff (and I am not sure what I would eat for lunch
anyway). If I had more energy, I would have made myself a PB&J. I'd love to offer to buy groceries, but I am not sure how much I owe on the cell phone bill (my sister is going to look it over to see if they applied the discounts). I did pay her the money I owe her for a wedding gift, so she is not completely wiped. I may need to clean the fridge, to make up for not doing the dishes. Then again, since I am getting a medication refill
and bus pass after my therapy, I am not sure if I can just swing by and pick up groceries. Plus, I need to shower. I had ambitions to make peppermint-fudge brownies for parties, but I really don't know. It's getting harder to find socks, too.

Plus, I need to get something decent for the audition. I am thinking a blazer, an decent blouse in a bright color, black shoes and black pants. I've been meaning to get new work clothing anyway. Oh, I didn't want to tell the general public until I got the letter, but here it goes. I've been invited to a Jeopardy audition. Mind, I may not get on. If I do succeed, I'll be put in a file of possible contestants. That doesn't mean I'll get on the show, no matter how many times my brother tells me I'm buying him a car when I win money. Actually, they are giving me all sorts of advice, like controlling my stuttering and reading an almanac.

I emailed the HR representative for my department. According to him, HR has no specific policy for time out for voting. Individual managers can shift times to accommodate delays and such, but employees are expected to vote before and after work, and during lunch hour. He mentioned early voting and absentee ballots. I have a confession to make. In college, I didn't vote in elections because I never got home on time before the polls closed, and I thought absentee ballots were only for people out of state, not still in the state. I worry that people have that kind of misinformation about absentee ballots. I better look up deadlines for that at the MA elections website.

Anyway, MA law states that an employee can take up to two hours off to vote, but needs to request it first. Also, I wonder if it is their place to let employees know that they can use absentee and early voting ballots. OTOH, they are required to follow state and federal law as part of their code of conduct.

For the record, my small subsection of work is an unknown quantity. They were having a conversation about how politicians do in their own states, and stated that they were angry at Kerry for not doing enough to keep manufacturing jobs in the commonwealth. Bush's record in Texas is the suck, but that is another rant. However, some of them were unhappy about how the war in Iraq is being conducted, so who knows? I also know something about my general manager's politics (listens to Jay Severin) and wonder how well received a 'Excuse me, but what is your general policy about voting and PTO?' Or maybe he'll like it, but it is not his judgment call. Who knows?

I guess this is one way to channel my anxiety. Another is writing. However, I haven't done much. I finished a lot, but am not sure what to do next. I haven't submitted anything to new publications like I keep meaning to. I keep talking about restarting the Ragnarok story, but no one in my head is cooperating. I also need to send the release forms to some folks about the query letter for this supplement I am thinking of writing. However, should I do a test run of the scenarios? I don't know. They did give me permission to use it in e-mail, but I am not sure if that can be used legally.

Funny thing: My brother is thinking of voting Green, but isn't sure because of their platform about slavery reparations.

I feel kinda bad about reading posts about people able to help people when I was too far away to. I told a friend that the next part of my plan after saving some money is to find a job near the Camberville area, but I am not sure. My primary wants me to move with him, but I am not sure if I will be able to find a job out of state. I want to explore, but I already have people I know and hang out with. Oh well, I can volunteer to help paint a room at a neighbor's sometime soon.

I apply to out of state technical writing and linguistics job, but no answer. I am wondering if I am doing something wrong. Is it my education, the way I structure my resume, or does having two years work experience several co-op and part-time jobs scare them? I don't know, and they won't tell me. Heck, I even offer to pay relocation costs.

I would like to get on Jeopardy. I would like to win enough to pay off student loans and other debts and maybe a little to save for whatever. I would like to decide whether to go to school and for what. I want one thing off my mind so I can concentrate on where to live, whether to get contacts, a STC membership, driver's license or a passport first, and who I want to spend my life with. I want to be less afraid of seeing apocalypse in my lifetime. I know there are some who wish for it, for then God will save only them and give them a brand-new world. No. I think of belief in the Messiah. The way I best understand it that first the people must work toward redemption, then one will come. Most people don't seem to think like that, and I don't think I do enough toward working for it. I hope I am crazy for fearing this. I would like to figure what to do with what time I have.