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Oct. 6th, 2004 07:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaI realized that if I pay off the credit cards, save up $600 and get an 8% pay increase, I can move out and live OK. Not great, but independently. I pay off the student loan handled by the collection agency, and I can live on less of an income.
My modest goals seem real far away. I can feel better about this: I can afford everything but the phone bill with the money I have now.
I cannot think of passing the Jeopardy audition when debts and feeling trapped are already distracting me at work.
God, what a pattern. If it isn't a dress for a wedding, it's the possiblity of voter suppression, and if it isn't that, it's the phone bill. It seems once I targeted on things that made me sad, I target on things that freak me out. It's bad enough I tend to shunt aside things when I don't want to think about them, and have them bite me in the ass later. Oh, next week, I will freak out about Jeopardy.
Still have nothing to write for a story.
My modest goals seem real far away. I can feel better about this: I can afford everything but the phone bill with the money I have now.
I cannot think of passing the Jeopardy audition when debts and feeling trapped are already distracting me at work.
God, what a pattern. If it isn't a dress for a wedding, it's the possiblity of voter suppression, and if it isn't that, it's the phone bill. It seems once I targeted on things that made me sad, I target on things that freak me out. It's bad enough I tend to shunt aside things when I don't want to think about them, and have them bite me in the ass later. Oh, next week, I will freak out about Jeopardy.
Still have nothing to write for a story.
