(no subject)

[taratemima]

iff(you == 17){
TheyWant(you){
TakePoloraid;
LetGo(you) && SayTheyllLetKnow(you);
}
}
else{
if (you == 21){
return you = NoFun;
}
return ComeOn(you);
};


I applied for what I thought would be the perfect job for me--a search editor specializing in US English--but it wasn't to be.

1. It seems to be a manager job too.
   
2. They have not contacted me today.
   
3. That job has been removed from their website.
   
4. I recognized them from those annoying cursors that put spyware on your computer. Edit: However, they do not do that anymore.

One thing I am frightened of is that I will not get hired by anyone. I will stay in this job and soon it will be 30 years, and I will have not done work in language, traveled overseas, or gotten published. I will be as dry and suppressed as I see my co-workers. I envy people who get to do exactly what they want, and want to work to be like them. I'm scared of being alone and without any
resources. That is why I am not taking my last few bucks and hoping a bus.

I keep wanting to leave it in God's hand, but I am not that sure. I cannot be sure if God wants me to be happy. I am not even sure what will ultimately be best. Some bumper sticker said "Why Should I Worry? God's In Control." I am not sure. There are too many people trying to control everything in
the world to make me feel like it will all work out as it should be. Too many unexamined assumptions masquerading as fate. Maybe I have them too.