taratemima | everything goes sideways

I end up being late to class, missing another class, and being late for some seminar for a 'direct sales' job I am not even sure I should take. But hey, $18 per hour presentation is the best rate, without anyone buying anything. I should be able to pay school in a short time, right? And they are a member of the Better Business Bureau, with only 14 complaints, eight resolved. They seem so nice, but want me to shell $140 for a starter kit of knives. I don't have a pot to piss in. And I hate my job telemarketing, but I don't know if this is the right thing. Maybe it is the idea of not sure if it all really is in my neighborhood, or wondering what they will pull, or not enough money for the starter (or even borrowing).

Everything seems backwards. A file for Symbolic Logic is lost, my Artifical Intelligence class is moved to Wednesday in another room, after I look up the updated info, and run to the new room. And I do not know how to accomadate an 8am class I need to fulfill my prerequistates and get my younger sister out to school on time, after my other sister leaves for DC.

I don't know what to do. And I am not sure how to interept what Rob Breszney says:

If I ever write a self-help manual called The Reverse Psychology of Getting Everything You Want, it will discuss the following paradoxes (all of which are useful for you to meditate on): 1. People are more willing to accommodate your
longings if you're not greedy or grasping. 2. A good way to achieve your desires is to cultivate the feeling that you've already achieved them. 3. As you work with all your might to manifest your dreams, you must understand that they'll
probably be changed by your pursuit of them. 4. Be careful what you wish for because if your wish does materialize it will require you to change in ways you didn't foresee.

And I still have to replace my ID and see Financial Aid.