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Sep. 1st, 2005 08:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaI got a call yesterday where I interviewed for the customer service position. They said they accepted an offer from someone else. Today, however, I got a call with no message (in the middle of a meeting too). When I called that number, it was the same place that told me they hired someone else. What, they were about to tell me the bad news and realized they already did?
However, it isn't so bad. Yesterday, since we had so little work, I caught up on Windows XP classes. Today, I forwarded a small help file I developed. They thanked me and said that it was an example of improving work for everyone. Plus, I found out someone I knew was temping at my work. I should talk to her more often.
I nailed down what I wanted to accomplished by spring of next year:
1) A+ certification
2) STC membership
3) finishing A Little Death
4) learning to draw so I can do some pictures of characters I developed
5) organizing my room
6) writing a relationship history, trying to find patterns in what I am attracted, what I am searching for, and what I learned from it. I expect I'll be crying a lot. My therapist thinks it will just be me brooding too much, always trying to figure out what I did wrong instead of moving on. However, memories of these relationships (not all standard love ones) haunt me and scare me from seeking out other people. I need to know why, and I need to know what got me there in the first place.
(On another note, to hear pop psychologists, I am doomed to have bad relationships with older men in search of a daddy substitute, because my dad and mom divorced when I was six. Can I substitute my daddy for something else, like a car?)
However, it isn't so bad. Yesterday, since we had so little work, I caught up on Windows XP classes. Today, I forwarded a small help file I developed. They thanked me and said that it was an example of improving work for everyone. Plus, I found out someone I knew was temping at my work. I should talk to her more often.
I nailed down what I wanted to accomplished by spring of next year:
1) A+ certification
2) STC membership
3) finishing A Little Death
4) learning to draw so I can do some pictures of characters I developed
5) organizing my room
6) writing a relationship history, trying to find patterns in what I am attracted, what I am searching for, and what I learned from it. I expect I'll be crying a lot. My therapist thinks it will just be me brooding too much, always trying to figure out what I did wrong instead of moving on. However, memories of these relationships (not all standard love ones) haunt me and scare me from seeking out other people. I need to know why, and I need to know what got me there in the first place.
(On another note, to hear pop psychologists, I am doomed to have bad relationships with older men in search of a daddy substitute, because my dad and mom divorced when I was six. Can I substitute my daddy for something else, like a car?)
