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rubynye and despite recent wanking (basically, someone objected to the start of the challenge being on Sukkot/Simchat Torah, and that spawned a whole bunch of made-up holidays to mock-flounce about, statements that all those references to Christmas is non-denomitional and totally inclusive and why are those religious minorities going on about their holidays [how Bill O'Reilly of you] and variations on 'talking "too much" about identity', 'looking for reasons to be offended', and other goodies, and occasional bouts of sanity like pointing out it was running for two weeks and she would still have time, and um, actually Sukkot is kinda busy, that the virulent response only proves the OP right when she feels like her opinion doesn't matter, and Christmas can be celebrated different ways), I joined ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
yuletide and even requested a fandom that was offered with no takers.
Some fandoms, I must confess, I chose because it would motivate me to read the book/watch the movie/get the TV series. Anyway, I hope it made someone happy.
I've also been debating whether or not to comment on f_w about this. It isn't the being the long dissenting voice against 'LOL SHE'S SO OVERSENSITIVE'. It's because 1) I don't believe this is happening, and 2) I'm too used to being in the corner and shutting the fuck up.
Maybe I've been in protected bubble all this time, but that much isolation and the hatred that contributes to it in fandom really fucking astonishes me. I knew Jewish fans, and I thought that was normal. Or rather, that Friday night dinner in the halls was one of those things that happen in cons, like costumes and long discussions about books. I thought long discussions about whether telekinesis counts as work on the Sabbath were commonplace, that it was OK to talk about thorny issues. But, as I figured from the black, brown, and yellow fans in my midst, and from the Jewish fans, no, not really. Fandom is like the rest of the world, only with funnier clothing. After reading this, maybe I will be able to pick instances where others are isolated. I hope so.
Plus, it pisses me off. With asshats hanging nooses in the wake of Jena and Ann Coulter bringing back supersession being treated like flukes, it's like 'it's cool to be an asshole who cannot see others' POV and refuse to do so'. Yeah, see, I had a mom and teachers who tried to train me out of that.
And please, don't make me talk about politicians and pundits going on about TEH GHEY. It will break friends list.
I've felt like my opinion doesn't matter on a wide range of topics. Apparently, being on the autistic spectrum means I cannot comment on vaccine hysteria or lack of coverage of um, teenagers and adults and how to help them without gibbering and meeping about a 'cure'. Being fat means I cannot be angry about fat jokes. My fiction ideas are too weird. No one wants to see my drawings. I'm the only one uninterested in soap operas or children at my work. I actually might think it was a reasonable idea for the commuter rail to run until midnight, and no, don't tell I 'shouldn't go into the city to get drunk' just because you cannot stand any noise in your suburb. Maybe I want to go to a concert or see a movie I cannot see in a multiplex, dammit.
I've been shy and quiet because I think that rejection is worse than being lonely. Except for this one issue.
If I convert to Judaism, I have this sick little hope that these fuckers have the gall to say some of the crap that chopchica has received to my face. I hope they experience that mythical Irish temper I've been holding back.
Someday, I hope I have the courage to be pushy, especially when others refuse to budge.
I posted a shorter version of this rant as a comment to the f_w post. I turned off the option to mail comments. I rather not bother with the self-justifications.
rubynye and despite recent wanking (basically, someone objected to the start of the challenge being on Sukkot/Simchat Torah, and that spawned a whole bunch of made-up holidays to mock-flounce about, statements that all those references to Christmas is non-denomitional and totally inclusive and why are those religious minorities going on about their holidays [how Bill O'Reilly of you] and variations on 'talking "too much" about identity', 'looking for reasons to be offended', and other goodies, and occasional bouts of sanity like pointing out it was running for two weeks and she would still have time, and um, actually Sukkot is kinda busy, that the virulent response only proves the OP right when she feels like her opinion doesn't matter, and Christmas can be celebrated different ways), I joined yuletide and even requested a fandom that was offered with no takers. Some fandoms, I must confess, I chose because it would motivate me to read the book/watch the movie/get the TV series. Anyway, I hope it made someone happy.
I've also been debating whether or not to comment on f_w about this. It isn't the being the long dissenting voice against 'LOL SHE'S SO OVERSENSITIVE'. It's because 1) I don't believe this is happening, and 2) I'm too used to being in the corner and shutting the fuck up.
Maybe I've been in protected bubble all this time, but that much isolation and the hatred that contributes to it in fandom really fucking astonishes me. I knew Jewish fans, and I thought that was normal. Or rather, that Friday night dinner in the halls was one of those things that happen in cons, like costumes and long discussions about books. I thought long discussions about whether telekinesis counts as work on the Sabbath were commonplace, that it was OK to talk about thorny issues. But, as I figured from the black, brown, and yellow fans in my midst, and from the Jewish fans, no, not really. Fandom is like the rest of the world, only with funnier clothing. After reading this, maybe I will be able to pick instances where others are isolated. I hope so.
Plus, it pisses me off. With asshats hanging nooses in the wake of Jena and Ann Coulter bringing back supersession being treated like flukes, it's like 'it's cool to be an asshole who cannot see others' POV and refuse to do so'. Yeah, see, I had a mom and teachers who tried to train me out of that.
And please, don't make me talk about politicians and pundits going on about TEH GHEY. It will break friends list.
I've felt like my opinion doesn't matter on a wide range of topics. Apparently, being on the autistic spectrum means I cannot comment on vaccine hysteria or lack of coverage of um, teenagers and adults and how to help them without gibbering and meeping about a 'cure'. Being fat means I cannot be angry about fat jokes. My fiction ideas are too weird. No one wants to see my drawings. I'm the only one uninterested in soap operas or children at my work. I actually might think it was a reasonable idea for the commuter rail to run until midnight, and no, don't tell I 'shouldn't go into the city to get drunk' just because you cannot stand any noise in your suburb. Maybe I want to go to a concert or see a movie I cannot see in a multiplex, dammit.
I've been shy and quiet because I think that rejection is worse than being lonely. Except for this one issue.
If I convert to Judaism, I have this sick little hope that these fuckers have the gall to say some of the crap that chopchica has received to my face. I hope they experience that mythical Irish temper I've been holding back.
Someday, I hope I have the courage to be pushy, especially when others refuse to budge.
I posted a shorter version of this rant as a comment to the f_w post. I turned off the option to mail comments. I rather not bother with the self-justifications.
