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Feb. 5th, 2002 09:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taratemimaWell, I decided that the telemarketing job wasn't worth the aggravation. I sure hope the other stuff comes through (manager trainee, maybe even working as a crew member--whee).
So, I am hoping to think of something to talk about other than jobs. Okay--it occured to me that I am poly for good and bad reasons. I do it because I like attention. I do it because I don't think I can be someone's one and only, and vice versa. I do because sometimes I perfer to be by myself. I do it because I am attracted to a mentor/disciple relationship, and want as many teachers as possible. I do because freaking out because your SO is talking to other people seems psycho. I do because I like being kissed a lot. I do it because I can't just make someone into the perfect someone. I do it because there is more than one someone out there for me. I do it because I am not sure what personality traits are good for me. I do it because the test of a relationship is how honest and open I am with another person, and vice versa, and it seems harder when you assume that one person is it.
For now, I have no clue if I want a relationship, how many or none at all. The job thing is an issue, but maybe if I treat as a temporary one, it isn't so bad. Sivan is being weirdly unresponsive, arranging to talk over Yahoo, not being there, and not telling me while afterwards. I am hoping to see Vulfel and Roseweiss on a game at their place.
Yeah, so another meme to take:
Take the Hey Hey, Which Monkee Are You? Quiz.
I was so hoping to be Mike Nesmith.
So, I am hoping to think of something to talk about other than jobs. Okay--it occured to me that I am poly for good and bad reasons. I do it because I like attention. I do it because I don't think I can be someone's one and only, and vice versa. I do because sometimes I perfer to be by myself. I do it because I am attracted to a mentor/disciple relationship, and want as many teachers as possible. I do because freaking out because your SO is talking to other people seems psycho. I do because I like being kissed a lot. I do it because I can't just make someone into the perfect someone. I do it because there is more than one someone out there for me. I do it because I am not sure what personality traits are good for me. I do it because the test of a relationship is how honest and open I am with another person, and vice versa, and it seems harder when you assume that one person is it.
For now, I have no clue if I want a relationship, how many or none at all. The job thing is an issue, but maybe if I treat as a temporary one, it isn't so bad. Sivan is being weirdly unresponsive, arranging to talk over Yahoo, not being there, and not telling me while afterwards. I am hoping to see Vulfel and Roseweiss on a game at their place.
Yeah, so another meme to take:
Take the Hey Hey, Which Monkee Are You? Quiz.
I was so hoping to be Mike Nesmith.
