taratemima | the frustrating cycle

Will I get SSDI? Should I get it, with all the slightly uncomfortable questions, the fact I can work. Trouble is, I can't work full time, and my Aspergers' does affect somewhat what work I get. It's a cycle.

I am tired of this rut->I am not sure I can get a job without a degree->Not to mention paying off student loans->Trouble is I hate my current job->How am I going to get a decent paying part-time job that won't make me feel stupid or angry->What will I do after college?

Frustrating. I don't know who I can turn to. Where can I find lab experience, or should I wait until I get a grade better than F in my stats (which is what I get for not getting up on time and using the reserve book for homework and not for understanding)? How can I get a better part-time job? Should I ditch this shit, work full-time, and save up to finish that degree?