Putting it off and rambling

I have my characters from Birch Circle (the comic book script I am writing) getting into my head in strange times. I rarely talk about this other than with members of my writer's group, but they have little political debates, tell stories of places they have gone, rant about how crappy boy bands are. I want to finish the script, if only because they want it finished. And for the record, I am sane, no voices telling me to kill and all that, dammit.

And I still need to send in my applications. I got an interview with some non-profit dealing with neurological disorders--they may or may not pay me. I could give a care, it's experience. However, I am slacking deliberately on Symbolic Logic homework. Ugh, the trouble is not with me not understanding formal proofs, and different rules, it is with me second guessing my methods of getting to the conclusions. Am I doing this right, following the procedures, or doing all wrong with the sort of confidence of knowing enough to screw up?

I am not a fanatical anime fan, but I like watching random episodes (Tencho Miyo, Ramna 1/2, Revolutionary Girl Utena and whatever looks interesting) and find some of the conventions getting into what I write (what is Meg Dunsmuir but a amalagation of Buffy Summers and Sailor Neptune, with some Celtic solar hero DNA thrown in?). I also have this fixation on KISS dolls. Hey, I liked paper dolls as a kid. And I became more familiar with different series, and the different plots in manga through it. I cannot read Japanese, so actual immersion in manga will have to hold off (and I know there is some English translations, I just don't know where the good ones are).

Why is Arik never there when I have AIM on? We seem to have a relationship. Not just friends, not exactly love, but more like lurve. Very goofy, very flirty, with me not caring that his girlfriend is watching us like a hawk. Ideally, I want Theresa to know that, hey, we are flirting with each other, having intense conversations, and yes, we don't mean to, but . . .I think the phrase for what ends up happening is second base. I have considerably less angst about it than I did a year or so ago. Less of a fear that I will end up alone and he will still have her. Less of the wish that he would rescue me from my loneliness. I don't know how to explain, but I am gaining self-sufficency in emotional matters, feeling less I NEED to be with someone. I want to, often, and I miss certain people, but I can survive.

Oh my . . .

According to emode.com's Celebrity Matchmaker, I can have as my dates . . .

John Cusack

Okay, maybe we're going out on a limb here, but we bet that if John Cusack gave you his heart, you — unlike Ione Skye in that classic Say Anything scene — wouldn't give him a pen. (What was she thinking?!) Sweet, funny, good-looking...what's not
to love about this all-around great catch? Nothing. The wry Chicago native proved
he was every girl's dream date in the '80s, and he's only gotten better since. Since
you always go for guys who can tickle your funny bone and put you at ease, he's
definitely your celebrity soulmate. (Just don't tell Neve Campbell!) With his quick wit
and dry sense of humor, he'd make sure you were never without a smile. Plus,
think how much fun it would be to get to hang out with older sib Joan!

Scary thing was Say Anything is one of my favorite movies.

Catherine Zeta-Jones

Yowza! She may be hitched to Michael Douglas, but fiery Welsh beauty Catherine
Zeta-Jones was meant to be your dream girl. As exotic and sensual as they come,
this adventurous actress started her career in British TV and then swashbuckled her
way onto Hollywood's A-list after co-starring in The Mask of Zorro with Antonio
Banderas. Her zest for life and earthy good looks are just what you're looking for —
nothing floats your boat more than a voluptuous (who could forget that
butt-in-the-air scene from Entrapment?) leading lady with charm and glamour to
spare. Sure, she's a mom now, but that just proves she's all woman. Try not to be
jealous of the baby...

Eh. Sure, she's lovely, but do I really want to deal with severe baby rabies?

Both unlikely. Oh well, it's fun asking.

Oh, and the test is at emode.com.