Inspired by wbova

Since they are some things I have not said in my journal, I'll give some of the answers away.

1. my name:
2. where did we meet?
3. take a stab at my middle name:
4. how long have you known me?
5. how well do you know me?
6. do i smoke?
7. do i believe in god?
8. when you first saw me what was your impression?
9. my age?
10. birthday?
11. color hair?
12. color eyes?
13. do i have any siblings:
14. have you ever had a crush on me?
15. what's one of my favorite things to do?
16. do you remember one of the 1st things i said/wrote to you?
17. what's my favorite type of music?
18. what is the best feature about me?
19. am i shy or outgoing?
20. would you say i am funny?
21. am i a rebel or do i follow all the rules?
22. any special talents?:
23. would you consider me a friend?:
24. would you call me preppy, slutty, a homie, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?
25. have you ever seen me cry?
26. if there were one good nickname for me what would it be?
27. are my parents still together? My parents are divorced. My mother re-married, but he turned out to be an abusive shit, Don't get me started.
28. what do i love?

You don't have time anymore.

Today I am going through a mother of a tooth ache. This is a back molar I remember hearing was 'impacted,' but as long as I brushed regularly, did not give trouble. Now it is, so much that I take two pain relievers every few hours. If I ever get a large lump of money, I am getting extraction, then implants for the middle molars. Argh, the trouble I put up with.

It seems to affect my singing, according to my voice teacher, pushing my tone into my upper face. Massage helps, pain medicine helps, it is focus that I need to work on. I need to mediate in earnest.

That toothache made me sleep late, and made me miss work again this weekend. I was hoping to make up missing weekday shifts on weekends, but no. I know I'll be screwed, but really, I want to finish off two more weeks, then live on my student loan until late June. That is, if it goes through. I want to know what it feels like to concentrate completely on your work again, not feeling guilty about missing work, not wondering if you are too caught up in eat/work/use money for transport. I know people who can combine work and school, but I only survive academically when I do that. Plus, this cutting classes to send job applications must be hurting me a little.

I hope I do well at the Bitwise interview. I did pretty decent there at co-op, but I know I will be expected to do better. Perhaps I should brooch the subject of working part-time? But two hours in the afternoon M-Th is just not going to help them.

I lost a logic puzzle book and an astrology book (which was my non-food indulgence) at Pandemonium. Which means I'll need to pick them up, and not mentally planning to grab the Vampire Dark Ages sourcebook on the Middle East, Hunter: The Reckoning book, and maybe Wraith, along with In Nomine. I wonder if that guy thinking of running the In Nomine game will ever get back to me.

Mashuko and I talked about lot of stuff, but we both agreed 1) we need to push Arik into a solo project of his own, with feedback from us. Hell, I'd be willing to sing, I had thought of singing with him arranging back when we were in that gray area of relationship/not relationship, 2) we both have been asking questions about faith, and feeling a need for it. Music is good, knowledge is good, but for the longest time, I wanted purpose. Some people are content assuming there is no inheriant purpose to the universe and that a person's life is limited to "You are born, you grow up, you die." I guess it sounds reductionist, but that is the impersonation I get.

I want to know what to do with my time before I die.